The phone begins to vibrate on the table, interrupting the few minutes of peace. Glancing over to see if it is yet again another “scam” call about qualifying for Medicare, the name of “that” friend appears. You know, the one who only calls when they need something. Immediately the mind begins to debate whether to ignore the call or answer, weighing the magnitude of the favor and how much energy one has to muster up. 

We all have this friend in our life. The one who always seems to have their world falling apart at every given moment and you always seem to be the friend that can fix it. 

But I am guilty of also being “that” friend, are you?

As I contemplate my relationship with God I am reminded of Paul in Romans 7:15

15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 

More often than not, I am only calling on God when I need something. When my world is falling apart and I need Him to fix it. I know I should pray often and in a conversation, but rarely do I. I know my time in the Word should be more than a checklist, but this sometimes feels difficult to do. I know my friendship with Jesus should not be a chore. 

I know all these things and yet, I often find myself doing exactly I what I do not like to do. 

I am the kind of friend to Jesus that I dislike. 

This week, as you consider your own friendship with Jesus, are you “that” friend? Or perhaps it comes in seasons? Take the time to consider which seasons are closest with Jesus and which seasons do you tend to only call on Him when needed. Then, take the time to consider how you can rectify the friendship. For me it is making daily time to spend with Him and reading less and listening more. Sometimes it is easier for me to read His Word instead of just being still, as I get antsy in the still. Maybe, just maybe, being still is where I need to be.